Sunday, August 14, 2011

Hi, Im 23 years of age and only been married for 3 months.?

I'm an asian girl married into an asian family who are very traditional. Altho I'm asian myself I'm not particularly traditional myself nor are my family. I was an independant working girl before marriage, I did things my way. But now after marriage I feel prisoned, I'm currently looking for a job, my inlaws don't have a problem with that luckily only because my husband has stood up to it. But other things such as going out,even if it's round the corner I'l have to seek my mother-inlaws permission, even if i'm going out with my husband I have to ask her first...which i think is ridiculous, I'v hardly ever seeked my mothers permission before going out or doing anything. I feel like a child. I get told what time to wake up in the morning by my mother-inlaw, I can barely go to my room to go on the computer to look for jobs coz the minute I come up I get called by her to go down and she finds me some sort of house work to do, even though she has another daughter in-law there, but her problem is she doesn't like it when I go up. She makes me look after her granddaughter while the kids mother does other work. I don't want to be babysitting. She makes me and the older daughter in-law cook all day long she always inteferes in the kitchen. I usually like to organise my day, I like to get the cooking out of the way first thing. As an asian family we cook alot of currys in big pans, which does last the whole day n night. So if i say to my mother in-law can I just cook all the currys now instead one curry now then another 1 in 2 hours then another in another hr she will say no. And no1s allowed to go against her she will be your worst enemy. I really hate it here, I never expected married life to be like this, I barely go out apart from on my husbands day off as long as she hasn't reserved him for the day. I feel so trapped as if I'm suffocating here. The moment my husband leaves home for work I dread every minute. And she's always going on about these traditional values drives me mad. And not 1 person cleans up after them selves, the bathroom is always filthy even if I clean it time after time, my husbands older brother and the younger brother teat the house like dirt, im tired of cleaning after them. I keep thinking to myself if it's like this now only in 3 months then how is it gona be like if I live here any longer. But I also dread saying to my husband lets move out, I feel guilty. And I think he might get the wrong idea about me, he might think I want to take him away from his family. But really I want my own space, a house that I can keep clean and be abit more organised with everything and more than anything spend more time with my husband. What shall I do? Should I mention it to my husband or not?

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