Dont know what to do...please help ppl?

i was ually abused as a child by my cousin brothers, even tho i didnt realise this at that time..i always thought of in my teen years..had first time when i was 16..had lots of affairs.. with almost all of the guys..then i met a guy online (nice guy) who asked me for marriage..i said yes just to avoid getting arranged married by my parents..both parents agreed...then i met another guy i loved..we had ..i could not think of life without him..but he said no for marriage coz of his parents..i tried to get him out of my mind..had affairs with other guys..then got married to the same online guy...i have been married for 2 years now...my husband got to know about my promiscuous past..he is angry...feels cheated...altho i havent thot of anyone else since i got married..i have tried everything possible to make my marriage work...he hates me and my family...he verbally and physically abuses me every now and then..i have asked him for divorce..say no..wants revenge..wht to do???